Sea: Thanks for sharing this! I'd love to be able to paint!! Can't paint if my life depended on it!! You've been thru so much lately, time to reassess and get a new plan of action, well just taking care of YOU I mean, I hope your Dr appt was good and you get some relief from your wrists. You wear your heart on your sleeve like I do and we forget about what we need! I'm freakin out cuz I quit my job and even tho it was part time, I still had a sense of independence And shopping money!heh heh! But I gotta make some serious changes in my life that I've put off for a long time and it's getting critical now. I gotta loose 80lbs and need to treat it like I did to getting off drugs and booze(18yrs now!) It goes deeper than just shedding a few lbs tho and will have to look at it like it is a self destructive behaviour. Deep stuff. So time to start a program of recovery and get journalling again! I'm so miserable right now cuz I am going on my 3rd week of no work and no anything(dealing with this issue) and am like a bear! I am avoiding doing what I set myself up to do! Recovery is like riding a bike up hill, if you stop pedalling, you start going backwards!!! Okay, I can here the Rocky theme music now so ....

Well Jane, I can top you on the losing weight part...I need to lose over 100 lbs. My hubby and I are both diabetic, my kids are overweight too. We spend too much time sitting around watching TV in the evening and no one exercises at all. The most exercise I get is cutting my neighbor's lawn along with mine although it has been so dry here the grass doesn't grow very fast to even have to worry about cutting it.
The last year has been a difficult one for me. A year ago April my DH was laid off from his job which came as a total shock to us. We didn't have health insurance for over 3 months and the cost of our prescriptions killed us. DH was able to get another job but it doesn't pay as much as his last job and we have to pay a portion of our health insurance plus a bigger deductible for prescriptions. I tried to find a job, but I am profoundly deaf and unable to understand well enough to talk on the phone so that really narrows down the job selections. I don't have much confidence either, I mean it's been a LONG time since I had to work, I filled out a LOT of job applications but Michigan's economy sucks and there just isn't a lot of hiring going on. I did get a job at Christmas working nights stocking shelves at Dollar Tree. I was asked to stay on after Christmas but by my working nights nothing was getting accomplished...clothes weren't getting washed, dinner cooked, etc...my family is used to my being home and doing it all. It kills me that my kids have to help us pay bills. I was depressed until January 2007 when I decided that I couldn't change our money situation so I just need to take it one day at a time. My DH does a few air compressor repairs on the side and he gives me some of that money and tells me to spend it on myself to get craft supplies because he knows I enjoy crafting so much. I've tried to sell my crafts but haven't had much luck, people around here just don't have the extra cash to spend on stuff like that. Oh well, eventually things have to get better, right?
Barb

Thanks for your reply Barb! Today I hung out with Klinger/Cindy and she is like a ray of sunshine in my life!! We just go to the thrift stores and find junk, our fav spot has a $1/bag sale 2x a week so we try and hit that on one of those days! It's just nice to talk crafts and such, go for coffee, it's sooo theraputic!!! I love my Forum Gals!!! Jane