Hi DG,

Ive felt the same way, for the same reasons. I was made to get out today though, and it was fun. Go outside. Sometimes you have to start, and the motivation comes later.

Hang in there.

Yep, you won't get into it, until you get in to it!

I have not been doing the real gardening work lately. I keep going out there to see if another bulb has come up. I pretend I am sitting there pulling tiny weeds, but really I keep hoping I will see one rise out of the dirt in front of my eyes. I keep wiggling the thin mulch thinking I am gonna find one!

I did resist the urge to sit next to the garden and stare ... I did not want to creep the plants out.

But, just sitting and looking might spark the mood for you.

@oldmangroot and @SweetMonkeyCheese Thanks for the support. I have much to do, so I'm going out today and do something - anything - toward getting this place straightened out. I don't know where to start, though. I guess I'll just start in the courtyard, since it needs the most work, and I see it the most. Once that's done, I will probably feel better. Plus, I'll be moving stuff from the courtyard out to the outside gardens, so that will get me out into them.

Or maybe I'll go down to the community garden and plant some seeds. It's going to be really nice today, only 75F, so a good time to do it.

I agree, just start and you'll be into it before you know it.

I know how you feel DG. I didn't get anything done in my yard last year.

This year I am doing better and even got my shade house cleaned out. I can walk in there now w/o stepping over a bunch of plants That started me doing a lot of propagating.

Then last week I cut that dang sweet almond back again. Progress. One thing at a time.

Good luck.

There is some link between being in the sun and physical activity decreasing depression. I think if you just get started you will feel better. I was kind of feeling this way a few weeks ago, then I planted two trees. Instant mood lifter!

Laura, I'm trying hard NOT to propagate right now, until I can get things more organized. Found a ton of marigold volunteers I will have to do something with, but not going to plant much right now.

Suncoast & cooper, that seems to be true. I feel much better now.

I hope you have a good day out gardening. Once you get started you will be fine some times its hard to get started.

I dont know what to say except i feel you brother. Depression and anxiety suck. I know. You WILL PREVAIL! I know this.

Honestly i just forced myself to do my spring garden. It was so hard but it gave me a little happiness. You can do it bud...

DG, that is great to hear!

I too hate to pick up the mess I make! but I love making the mess!!! I still have little piles of cuttings/weeds ect from a few weeks ago... In fact I had one pile I was telling myself I was using to stop weeds and grasses from growing. I threw dirt ontop of it 2 weeks ago and put some morning glory seeds down! I told myself 6 to 8 inches of old dried up weeds would be a good barrier for the nematodes - I dont know if that is true, but it was more fun than picking the pile up.

I did sit and stare at my plants today, I dont care if it creeps the plants out, it made me happy.

I hope that this is just the 1st of many happy days in the garden this year!!!

The biggest mess I ever made was once when I pruned and cleared out my back hedgerow at my house. I had so much debris, it made a pile on the side of the road 12 feet long and 5 feet high. North Port had a limit on how much bulk yard waste they would pick up for free, so that was my limit for the year. After that, I had to chop everything into 4 ft. sections and stuff it into my 4 large garbage cans I used for yard waste. I'm glad I don't have that much to do anymore.