Hello Plant Universe.....
I want...I need your help ....please. Hoping that this place is what I have been looking for. Lengthy post but horrific story.
I just found is site/forum from going down the rabbit hole of online searches 😑 brainstorming creative (cheap/free) ways to get plants, seeds, equipment/supplies ect.
I desperately NEED to start rebuilding my indoor garden I started 6yrs ago and other plants that I’ve had longer than that. I say need because it’s dramatic effecting my mental and emotional health. I’m heartbroken, depressed, and honestly lost missing this huge part of my normal daily routine & in my life. Like it’s my thing lol. Here it is:
All of my indoor thriving healthy mature plants died. When I say I had a huge indoor garden I mean I grew in containers, hydroponics, I had a solar set up to run grow lights, different stations that covered my whole basement. As well as I had my normal house plants throughout the rest of the house & outdoor. After moving into a new house that I thought was my dream home a month later slowly but steadily everything died over six month period. Everything. I first noticed my hydroponics we’re not doing good or “normal”. I contributed this to move and reset up. I couldn’t figure out problem so I would start over using the trial & error method. During that time my kids and I were not feeling well -having medical issues. I developed quick onsite alopecia, and lost most of my hair on the right side of my head. A few months into it I gave up on my hydroponics. A few more months later the last to die were my violets & my beautiful cherished amazing Redwoods. We used to live on the West Coast and try to go out every year. I’ve brought back the two different kinds of redwoods the giant sequoia and the coastal redwood. I always used to joke that I would be so mad if my great great grandchildren killed them off. When they died I lost it!!Thats is what did it for me. I remember laying on my bed crying I mean bawling like mourning my plants deaths mourning my fruit & redwood trees and asking my boyfriend what I was doing wrong what I could not figure it out why. why? why? I called my mother and I just unloaded to her. I cried all night felt bad like I was like bad plant parent. Swore of growing anything ever again
:( anyone has experience something like this? that’s what it felt like for me. A month later after my landlords tried to illegally evict me by conspiring with the cities building inspector to “condemn” my home making me and kids leave with no notice with none of our stuff. Pretty wild huh? My landlords and the building inspector did this after I found a mold issue in the house and the landlords just wanted to throw some drywall up over it and I insisted that more needed to be done since I had house looked at & two estimates done. After figuring out that the building inspector in my landlords were actually friends from reviewing video from cameras that I had in my home showed them literally talking about all this and coming up with a plan to lie and deceive me. Long story short I ended up calling law-enforcement after it all happened and I found video. building inspector was charged with acting in the color of law arrest and seizure without due process. The house was tested twice by two different mold testing companies by the city and myself and it turns out that my landlords bought the house with extreme mold damage. when I say extreme I mean all the walls were covered in black mold and they put up false walls & ceiling over it. Out of 1000 species of mold there’s actually only about five that are the true blue toxic black mold. That house had not just one but three out of the five throughout the house and the chimney was coming in it was so bad. This explained my hair loss and why everything died in that house. I had a total loss everything. Including all of my equipment-supplies-seeds-everything. My kids and I were left homeless. renters insurance wouldn’t cover it because it was mold. the owners insurance turned it down because mold and obviously the details & owners actions. It’s been hard, then on top of that dealing with all that, not having my plants ease what I coping with. Growing anything been my sanity and my whole life. The small town that I live in and my neighbors I have been amazing I actually ended up in the house right across the street. However.... I ended up losing my job I’ve been at for six years from missing too much work while all that was going on. Then my mom had a sudden severe brain aneurysm in October..... she died in my arms. After taking care of her affairs I started working again in December. But I completely depleted my savings and spending the rest on necessities. This is not a poor me story. I was raised to have a better attitude than that. In fact this is me professing rising through all life’s hardships and heartbreaks. This is about kindness and blind hope. Every time I see a person or people on the side of the street with a sign looking for help I can honestly say every time I stopped and gave them even just a couple bucks. Sometimes people get after me and they don’t agree with it but I always say that someday I’m gonna need that back and I know it will be there. The best sign I’ve ever seen was this guy playing the guitar couldn’t play a note sounded horrible but he was having a great time, long dreads, and a sign that read HEY UNIVERSE - I REALLY NEED THAT $20 BACK! How simple. Honest. Hopeful.
Now I am humble enough to not to claim all the good deeds I have ever done and karma I have out there. But I am willing to share my story.
I am hopeful and rely on the blind faith I have that this post is me telling the universe that “I need that $20 back. I need my plants back”
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Would anyone be willing to help me rebuild or donate to my indoor garden & sanctuary? It’s a longshot but I know worth asking if anyone could send me a redwood? That’s only specific I ask for.... other than that I’m not picky I will grow anything and everything I will love them and cherish them and give them all a good life LOL. If you have any extra supplies or equipment you don’t use please know how grateful I would be and how much I would make use of it.
Again I just found this site and I think I have an idea of how this works but not sure if there are certain rules or how I would go about that. Please let me know.
I’m genuinely curious to see if I get any responses or anyone sees this.
cherish everything that you grow you could be gone tomorrow
•thank you for time you gave reading my story•
~Tracy ~
South Dakota