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Like always I jump the gun, then comes the guilt..

11 years ago
last modified: 11 years ago

I feel like I must be the only person in the world who's constantly second-guessing every design decision I make, and then feels an overwhelming feeling of guilt over spending money I've worked so hard to earn. I'm in the process of renovating and decorating an ugly cookie-cutter house we purchased 3 years ago. (please forgive me God for saying that when so many people aren't lucky enough to have a home at all) and so far It's coming along nicely, so far, but through every single stage I make myself sick with uncertainty and worry about decisions I've made.

The first problem is this site. I come here and see everyone making effortless design decisions that turn out perfect. I often wonder where these people get the money from, and how are they born with such talent to design everything so perfectly harmonious and cohesive. It makes me depressed and puts a tremendous amount of pressure on me to want to achieve the same high standards. I feel like my projects end up like pinterest fails.

The second problem is that I see something, and I decide that's it! it'll be perfect! I then make a huge down payment, happy until I start googling and houzzing, and then it's instant regret and second-guessing. Don't get me wrong, I don't want my house to look pottery barn-y catalog perfect, but I don't want to be the eccentric quirky decorator either. I believe there's a very thin line between the two, and we all know that if we want some sort of design cohesion in our living space there are things we have to sacrifice, and choices we have to make and stick to. So I have a problem with that. I'm that pain in the ass mind-changer, phone caller, emailer, and I hate feeling that way. In my defense though too, I think the process of these decisions would be easier if in general I were dealing with honest people. I experience a lot of bait and switch. I won't tell you about my whole ordeal with granite-switching. Let's just say i learned a little to late that when you go choose granite to bring a sharpie with you..

anyway, my new first-world problem is that I decided to have installed Shaw Hickory flooring thinking I had a choice in contrast variation, which I don't, but went ahead with it anyway. Now I feel the floors will be too rustic and pixalated, and to make matters worse I found and fell in love with this henley ivory carpet from PB and went ahead and purchased it too. Now I'm feeling they will clash and will look totally stupid, and I'll feel ridiculous for thinking I could effortlessly pull it off. I'm so pissed at myself. I do this all the time.

So I'm here to ask all you perfect people if these floors go well with this area rug, because at this point I've lost all trust in myself.

Comments (118)

  • PRO
    11 years ago
    last modified: 11 years ago

    I suppose one might conclude that Joan tries to ease the pain of her self admitted "guilt" through (great) food...

    I'm sure she's grateful to have some of you as friends who are willing to initiate an "intervention" when things REALLY get tough. lol

    I know Margo & Chook are always on the case!

  • 11 years ago

    Hey, Select, did you get my message on your pro page?

  • 11 years ago

    JoanJay, would you mind revealing from which Caribbean jungle you hail? Your reference to the outhouse gave me flashbacks.

    By the way, I think the floors and rug you picked are beautiful.

  • 11 years ago

    Throwing a match into an outhouse can give you flash overs.

  • 11 years ago

    My theory has always been that if you buy pieces you love they will all work together. There are exceptions but I've had more success than failure with that approach. The key, I think, is to recognize the difference between what you love and what "will do." Patience is also helpful because it might take a long time to find the perfect piece. You said you love the rug, and it works with the floors (which are beautiful), so keep it. Since it's from PB, if you don't like it, return it.

    The pictures on this site and in magazines should give you ideas for your home but not set an unrealistic bar for you to try and achieve. Don't forget that many of the articles on this site mention that the owner(s) worked with a designer/decorator/architect so they have a leg up on achieving perfection. Plus, even those homes are staged before they are photographed professionally. Growing up in L.A., I've had the pleasure of many coincidental celebrity sightings and one thing those have taught me is that there is a reason they give technical awards for hair, lighting and make-up. Perfection is a professional team effort and most mere mortals will fall short. Tell yourself what you would tell a 14 year old girl lamenting that she didn't look like the model on the cover of Glamour/Vogue/etc; It's not real for 99 percent of the population so be yourself.

    Lighten-up on yourself and trust that you will create a comfortable home that reflects your personal style.

    User thanked jstitcher
  • 11 years ago

    So I came back to update..the flooring still hasn't been installed. Can you believe that? The installer is very nice guy, and seems genuine, perhaps he's truly busy, no doubt, but don't tell me it'll be done in two weeks, and now it's been more than a month!

  • 11 years ago
    Hi there, congratulations on your new house. I have not read through this whole thread, so forgive me if this is redundant.
    When purchasing a new home it is often helpful to hire an interior designer, not decorator, to help you navigate through some of these difficult decisions.
    A professional designer will save you tons of money and prevent expensive design mistakes.
    People have a huge misconception, they can't afford a designer, but yet buying things without a true design plan in place often leads to expensive mistakes and wrong choices. A designer works with your budget, sources things at wholesale prices and comes up with a step by step plan for you.
    Maybe you don't need a rug right now. Get the floors installed and see how you like them.
    Purchase some key pieces first then add the accessories as you can afford.
    User thanked User
  • 10 years ago

    No, Joan, she's certainly outspoken, but she helps hundreds of posters on this site with design advice.

  • 10 years ago

    So glad you finally got your floor completed.

    User thanked User
  • 10 years ago

    I don't care how many people she helps, she behaves like an ass, and almost like she's looking for trouble. What's the point of that? you shouldn't make excuses for people who behave that way.

  • 10 years ago

    We have had real trolls on Houzz, sometimes scarey. Houzz takes them off . She would not have survived this long if she were in that category. Try not to let it worry you.

  • 10 years ago

    JoanJay, what's up with the attack on Margo? None of that makes any sense at all!

  • 10 years ago

    Ann, Margo put up the photoshop Mark did of her . It was just a joke, Joan.

  • 10 years ago

    Yes, I remember that photoshop Mark did and it was funny. Margo certainly took it that way too. I don't understand the attack at all.

  • 10 years ago

    GET A SENSE OF HUMOR

  • 10 years ago
    For Joan:
  • 10 years ago

    If I call my hubby that, he says Nicea$$.

  • 10 years ago
    Better than dumba$$, chook!
  • 10 years ago

    Yes, I have trained him well. Now table manners are a work in progress.

  • 10 years ago
    His or yours?
  • 10 years ago

    Def his.

  • 10 years ago

    Margo ....is actually very nice....what happened? I thought everyone was happy in here?

  • 10 years ago

    It appears Margo has removed her Houzz account. I'm sad about that!

  • 10 years ago

    I don't believe it.

  • 10 years ago

    No wonder she is feeling hurt. What nasty comments that are totally uncalled for.

  • 10 years ago

    Chook, I just assumed that since I can't find her.

  • 10 years ago

    Thanks, Ann.

  • 10 years ago
    My question to the OP is.....why would you say something like that, knowing you were going to hurt someone's feelings? Why would you do that???
  • 10 years ago

    I think Houzz has gotten rough with criticism (both about people's homes and on a personal level). I've had tons of dilemmas in the past, but not sure I'd be brave enough to start any new ones with the current state of Houzz.

  • 10 years ago
    It's sad, is what it is. People have feelings.
  • 10 years ago

    Looks like things may have gone full circle...like I always jump the gun...then comes the guilt...

  • 10 years ago

    What the FLAMING.......

  • 10 years ago
    I would suggest ending this post and design dilemma. No need for such nastiness.
    The OP has received sufficient reassurance and validation on floors and one $600 rug she bought!
    Time to move on.
  • 10 years ago

    Dear Joan,

    You no longer have to be embarrassed for me. Margo is gone.

    Despite everything, good luck with your floors.

  • 10 years ago

    Everdebz, I read your comment twice but must say, I don't understand your comment or get what your point is. I don't even know to whom you are speaking.

  • 10 years ago

    Joan-- as her profile pic shows an owl / she gave Margo the boot essentially. I will delete it anyway, since I feel too humbled with last couple hours here in my life.... Ann, you'd have to read enough comments above.... don't bother is my thought....

  • 10 years ago

    You're alright, debs. Don't delete, you made it clear now.

  • 10 years ago

    Oh, now I understand. Thanks for explaining. Sometimes I struggle with some of the houzzers that have a clever way with words (like you and Chook). I kind of need things spelled out, lol:)

  • 10 years ago

    I don't mind if you ask, Ann. I speak Strine, an Aussie version of English.

  • 10 years ago

    Floors look great; you don't need a carpet or rug.

  • 10 years ago
    This account no longer exists.
  • 10 years ago
    What a wierd, drama-filled thread!
  • 10 years ago

    No kidding!

  • 10 years ago

    Wow!

  • 10 years ago

    Exactly what is fun about someone being trashed when not called for.

  • 10 years ago
    Your floors are beautiful! You made a wonderful decision when you chose them. Give yourself a real pat on the back. From the picture, the table and design is beautiful. The pictures in magazines are all styled and edited before they are taken. When you have a picture taken professionally you also try to look your best. It's reality...but not everyday living.

    Designers do this for a living. They are used to seeing tons of choices and narrowing them down and making decisions. But they really need the client to help them make it right. This is your home and you make it wonderful by being in it. There's no amount of design that can do that. Haven't you seen lots of design pictures that you would never want? That's someone else's dream. Enjoy your lovely room and fill it with family and friends....then it will be perfect!
  • 10 years ago
    This OPs account has been closed now for about a week!
  • 10 years ago

    Thankyou, Sandy.

  • 10 years ago

    So. How's it going?...:-)))

  • 10 years ago
    Well Joan ..you could also be a humorous writer!! I loved reading what we all feel about this obsession with all these insane choices. I loved when you said you don't want to end up as a pin interest fail...lol